One Whole Year!

Thats right, my boys are ONE! They had a birthday on May 24th. I have been putting this post off because I honestly am so emotional about it. When I think about this last year I get a hurricane(not just a flood) of feelings, emotions, memories,happiness,and lots more....... I am going to do a fast recap!! I found out I was having twins when I was 21 weeks along. They didn't tell me anything else until I went to the specialist a week later. On the way to the specialist the I had an overwhelming feeling that the doctor was going to tell me bad news but I was comforted in knowing everything would be ok. I am so grateful Heavenly Father gave me a heads up because I would have been a mess(I still was a little). But the specialist told us that Baby B had lots of extra fluid on his brain and was so negative that the baby wouldn't even make it and if he did there would be something really wrong with him. He also said it is likely that the fluid would keep expanding and his head would explode terminating both babies. Sorry to be so blunt but so was he, it was horrible to hear. There was nothing we could do but wait a whole month to see what has happened. I am not going to lie, I don't think I slept hardly at all!! He also told me to decide if I wanted to abort. Oh my gosh what an idiot, Heavenly Father obviously knows all and can you imagine if we would have listened to this guy. Two healthy boys were born May 14th in an emergency C- Section. They were born six weeks early exactly because I got food poisoning and couldn't stop throwing up and the contractions wouldn't stop. Once again we were blessed cuz we then found out they had twin to twin transfusion and Jace wasn't getting any food but he was taking all the red blood cells from Kobe. I am so happy I got food poisoning:) They were in the NICU for three weeks and let me just say that to this day when I drive by that place I get all watery eyed. It sort of felt like home and they took great care of us. I would lie if I said things were easy, they weren't. And these were not easy babies. I am not kidding when I say they cried all the time, its true. They were so colicky, my doctor said theres colic and then theres extreme colic and that was them. I am not going to write everything but then they had bad reflux, and milk protein allergies. Please understand that I am not complaining at all, in fact I feel the opposite. I feel and felt so blessed to have them and so grateful that I was able to handle it. I prayed a million times a day and there were several times when I had nothing left and I would kneel outside their door with them screaming and me crying praying that they could be comforted and know they were loved. Those with colicky babies know that sometimes it doesn't matter what you do, they don't stop crying. Honestly the only way I made it through this was the great support of my husband and the love from our Savior. And then, not too many know about this but when Jace was two months old he aspirated when he was sleeping and when I found him he was ice cold and gray. I won't go into detail but luckily Eric had just gotten home from work. My neighbor was layed off from his job and he heard me screaming and he came over and honestly saved Jace's life. From this point on I was a nervous wreck and if they ever had a nap I was right next to them making sure they were ok. It took a while to get over this but now that they are older I am not breaking down the door in a sprint and a sweat every five minutes:) Everything happens for a reason and as you can see my little boys are on this earth for a reason and we have been blessed so much. They bring us so much happiness, they have cute personalities and are so much fun now. So, when I said I get emotional that they are a year old its true because they are healthy, happy, so much easier and we have all been through a lot. This past year has brought our family so close together because we realized that family is the most important thing. And I think Eric has learned to love me even if I don't get a shower everyday and my hair is a mess or I have the same shirt on for two days:) And I love him for that!!

We had a fun family party for them and Jace loved his cake and also a few cheerios in his high-chair:) But Kobe is not so happy cuz during the song he grabbed the candle and the flame. But I think all of the screams and Ooohs and Ahhs scared him more than it hurt.

On their actual birthday we took them to the park. They love it!

And love swinging! Jace cheesing it........


Kobe catching a little air.....
Anyways, truly HAPPY BIRTHDAY my little MIRACLES!!! We love you!